I'm so cold and hungry, that I'm trying to distract myself from eating. I've tried concentrating on Uni work, but that isn't happening as all I can think about is food. Why am I addicted? I wish I could be like those normal people that don't always eat or think about food. Today my calories will be under 800calories, if I stay strong. Then fingers crossed I will lose tomorrow as I needa start losing again.
Ohhh we get this veg, fruit and meat box delivered to our home and its all locally sourced and organic. So I'm trying new foods all the time and because its all fruit and veg in the fridge and only meat in the freezer, there is no temptation in the house to eat naughty things. Sometimes that is a bad thing because it makes me do crazy things such as make a huge bowl of pasta or eat porridge or make crumbles just so I can binge.
I've got a presentation tomorrow in front of the whole class to show my webdesign ideas. I'm not looking forward to it and don't want to finish my presentation because if it is never finished it means in my weird brain that I never have to present. I just hate making a prat outa myself in front of everyone. I don't want or need attention. I want to sit quietly and perfectly in my little bubble with my ideas, away from horrible loud people that do mean things. I know I will do the presentation and fingers crossed do a good job because its for 30% of my grade, but I'm dreading it inside.
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